~A Feast~

another week here i am stuck in UNIMAS...yeah...stress all over...FYP...Asgnmnts n presentation...erm...great yeah....n of course...this happen to me again...I am sick...haiz...flu came earlier nw its gone....but here come the Cough....<>...both of them are really good fren...do visit me together although on the same time but its enuf to torture me...today...supposely to go Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka....but its closed...okies..it only open on weekdays n on office hours....People...if wana go there..make sure go on WEEKDAYS n on OFFICE HOURS....thn went off to PUSTAKA......okies..its open..yeapz...its OPEN but....officially its open at 11a.m....great......cuz of that....we went to Boulevard...did our shopping for lunch n plan to the library is postponed to next week....haiz...what a life....but we did get a nice heavy and healthy lunch...for the very first time we had something fresh n not from a can...hehehe.....Its Assam Fish...Sweet n Sour Fish and also Mix Vege...yeahhhhhhhhhh..yummy......duno hw to describe but let the pictures say it all...yeahhh.......(Connection SuX again..cnnt post pics....but will post wen got stable connection)-time to WoRk again......

anyone know the feeling of being pressured??????

anyone know the feeling being pressured....my shoulder feeling so heavy....feeling of 46peoples marks is on my shoulder..which i am bearing it now with few of my coursemate...this feeling really s***!!!!!!!!! can u imagine what will be happening if u failed to provide those members the marks which is nearest to 20?????????possibility to get 20marks is there but the possibility to loose mark is also there as this ting i got no confidence at all cuz there's till (????) all around...but since all the combined group leaders said its lik dat...what can we say...although there are still (????) in our heads......

i dun know y n how shall i react.....i wana to deliver the best in presenting my points and convincing my lecturer in marking us to the best??????? i still cannot feel the interaction although there was improvement during rehearsal jz now...but interaction from the WHOLE group is the main thing that is needed.......i heard from people on....do u think that lecturer will giv us marks only on few directors mumbling n few shareholders mumbling?????and few questions that r goin to be asked?????lik dat?????????? it is not easy lo....or mayb im just thinking too much...m i???someone please tell me....here is the place to score for dis particular subject....

not the rehearsal.......not the points.....there's just something that is so not right.....duno y do i hav this feeling but this feeling is here n my sixth sense owes give me quite accurate real ting might hapen.....

im very stress im afraid that i will loose my patient anytime from now....do pray hard ya.......

~Early in the Morning~

starting off with, "angel, everyone is aslep but left us sitting here suku suku"haiz....answering back "my fren, which sem we not sitting here suku suku le?".....my fren got so speechless n nothing to say...cuz im shooting ourselves...mayb dis is the symtom of not getting slep at tis time....looking outside as the sky is gettting lighter and come out with another question....we're the most romantic fren that every semester sure for once we sit togete n watch sunrise...hahaha..the fren of mine goes...angel...don talk..don wana talk to u liao...hehehe...hw can i resist not to laugh....gudnes...Angel ur sot...hahaha

friendship....from a blog of a very good fren of mine...my bestie...someone that does not cherish frenship..they are so called "Fren" that duno what is fren although they got dictionary to search for the meaning...but to that person that know hw to read but they would not know hw to elaborate n inteprete the meaning of "FRENSHIP"....sad to see n knowing people lik dat..hw pathetic....kecian kan? they don DeSERVE the real ting NAMED FRENSHIP..............

its time to go back to asgnmnt that kill my brain cells n waiting for my sunrise.......crazy me.....Gambateh....to me, dar n suling let us work.........hurrayyyyyyyy........

Bu8y Busyyyy....

buSy dis tiMe really Busy...but till got time to blog...hehehe..have been facing lappy for the whole day....tired eyes getting watery..its early in the morning.....missing my bed but gona hold for a little while more b4 i can dozed off to dreamland n continue working hard tomoro....hehehe....
stress n stress n stress....ting that cannt runaway from,.hw tired m i physically and mentally....but at least i did hav nice rest back home...aft dis no time to loose no time to waste..every min n every min is very precious....

bye..back to asgnmnt liao.gona update again soon.....

I'm tired

im so so tired...im so not happy...im so depressed...im tired of everyting happening to me lately...got no 1 to talked too..somethimes i do miss having some1 by my side to share everyting to..but nw the special some1 is so long not here by my side anymore....sometime i just nid a shoulder to lean on...but what can i do since there's no hope for it anymore although how much i wan it to be...
life aint easy for sure..n im so sure n definate abt it now...i jz nid a break..i nid to hav a break of peacfulness with my head nt worrying anyting. i miss times that i can actually jumping n running...
im speechless....im tired...i duno what n hw should i react anymore...so so tired dy...sometimes i feel lik giving up but not at this very last moment.......haiz.....

anyway...praying for betterness and hapiness of life ahead n God will guide me n help n strengthen me through everyting....

*^WeEkeNd*^

this is the weekend that i miss a lot...spending my precious time wid my loved ones..my family....today i went out whole day...from morning till night....OMG....morning...stock uploading..shopping for FOOD........yeahhhhhhhhh....aftn.....to Santubong for Fish Hunting...OMG....short picnic...fun time wid dady mumy sis n bro wid aunties n uncle..wid couzie...nice scenery....long time since i ease my eyes with nice calm green scenery...how peacefull.......here are some picz that gona round up all that make me blew up with no words to describe.......

^Nice BeAutiFeul BeaCh^

^brO-Adrian, Me, Sis-Sze, Couzie-PeiChieN

^Me Sis n Mumy ActIng lik MomoK^

*Me & SiS*

Me=neW haIr....YeaHhhh......

hOmeEeeeeeeeeeee

Yeah......Im HomE...Finalyy......

huraAyyyy.......my home sweet home...my nice comfy bed.......

the smell of my home....everyone is home....

HOME.............

We3k3nd

i wan my weekend backkk....i miSs my weeKends wid FamilY....i wan it bAck..weEked its Just dAy aft 2moro...just cnnt wait for exam to be over n bacK home have my nice RelaxinG wEekEnd wid FamiLy....

ya...ya ya....i admit i admit...im HoMe sIck...

it have been lik for weeks i ddnt go bak Home...i wan to back home relax...here too much stress...everyday...books...articles..nw questionnaires....haiz..

but i did some Lil gardening here in Unimas...that is wat i call STRESs....but its fun tho...at least i gt soemthing to care of wen im so stress looking at it...its give great sense of satisfaction....hehehe....

but its really the very 1st time i take care of -----> *pics to be posted soon*-line sux mannnnn.............. wan post pic oso cnnt...apakahhh......

Here Come the PhOtoS.......(1st March2009)

LooKing forward dis WeeKenD...me GoiN bacK hOme.....HuRray......whOeva StOp me frOm thIs to HaPPen...i'm So gOna HeNtaM u.........

p/s: Whats next on the list for Angel to do some gardening...hahahaha

~Wednesday 25th February, 2009~

Time Flies....a new year is ending its 2nd month of the calender...

that means...end of university life end real soon...*crossed fingers* if ntg came along to stop it frm happening...

what can i say...this 3 years have been great...goint hru the ups n the downs...but i enjoyed it n it make me more mature in a way but for my frens..they willl say..Angel is till Angel....getting more siao..more cha si lang..more hiao...etc...its had been great...missing all this for sure...

the sweet n the bitter is goin through with me right here inside me till the end of life....oh yeahhhh.....

FYP FYP FYP...PTA PTA PTA...

tiamz liao la dis time.....no time no time...no tile to loose but gt belly to loose....n flatten it again....nid exercise mannn...

huhuhuuh............everyone is rushing for FYP..Asgnmnts....projects.........examsss coming soon...my Last mid Term is coming to an end soon........last paper dis friday....thn asgnmnts..PTA......wow.........song.....dis time nt panda zombie, i duno wat i shud call myself liao....huhuhu...

tata.....wait i back home write longer......dis dno can post of nt.line nt really good...hehehehe

~Down Wednesday~

Its Wednesday man..no internet….got la…don say don hav…but the line really sux man.OMG…took me ages to open a webpage to check on my online distributed questionnaire…haiz…
Im bored…I am so gona take my aftn nap in a wile..but feel lik blogging a wile…but since there no proper internet line thn I would just save this file up n publish it wen I gt to internet connection…hehehe…
Lately, I hav been flashing back few stuff again n again….sometime I feel that I hav a delete button…half a year had pass…but the pain is till here deep inside…u might feel ntg..cuz its over for u..but for me…there no words to describe….i wish I could jz let go the past n move on…leaving all of that behind..but what can I do?? I do feel lik crying again and again but what for since there would not be any turning back point anymore…but I wished it will be one….hope will ended as hope not more thn hope…ntg I can do….
Once there someone ask y ddnt I hold on n reject it…I did…I did tell u that I till wana kep it…but u let it go…u let go…wat I can do nt to let go…I cnnt force u…Ur different…wat u wan u will do it n u will kep ur words…
Sometimes I do ask myself y m I so stupid to keep holding to dis feeling n not letting it go…jz let it go Angel…let it go…I wish I cud…I wanted…I tried..but ntg cud actually make me let go….im tired im tired….start a new relationship…mayb hunting again..or jz forget all abt getting attached again…..for the sake of nt getting hurt again….i duno..i really duno…I do not wana knw…im tired….
Im tired tinking…im tired..mentally..but physically im so energetic..mayb a jog later on…hahaha..but don tink so liao as weather don allow n yumei is goin Allamanda to cure her ill lappy..pity her lappy…hehhe…sleping time…..yeahhhhhhhhh……..
NITEZZZZZZZZZZZ…..

4.09p.m. – 4th February 2009