~<(ang3L[5z3]N@)>~

~A little Come Back???~

2011-02-15T19:32:00.002+08:00

im back here to update...after...how long...??? im not sure n i lost count!!!!! hahaha....

KPLI KPLI KPLI!!!!!

The thing i hope for n i GOT it...

been thru the training for half year for now....now its the climax of everything...

PRACTICUM!!! PRACTICUM!!!

PRaCticUm U've turn my life upside down!!!!

bt im grateful..that im in this..that gona change my life..the one i wanted the one i asked for....

tho was thrown this far away from home..

life ain't easy here...tho to others it might be something fun...cz im here in KL..

College nt far away from Mid Valley...

and also access to all SHOPPING CENTERS here...

Being apart from what i have n what i own

disparities distance happenssss!!!!!

being alone its NOT FUN AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mayb this is the time for me to learn and to be independent..somehow..

how independent u are...

someting wil knock u down...

having people by my side supporting me, cheering me up, to listen to me...

thats is very much important...

sometimes, i just couldnt help it...

i felt myself annoying!!!

I do fel tiredd!!!! very very tiredd!!!!!!

Im looking forward for every trip back home..somehow..sometimes...

the excitement reducing...

In mY mind!!! i Just wana go back...

JusT GO BACK TO THE PLACE WHERE I BELONG...

to the people that i love..the one i care...

thats all i wanted!!!!

missing home missing family missing every single thing....

flashing back hurts sometimes....

Make me Miss it more...MISS TO GO BACK TO THE PLACE I BELONG TOO.....

I thank everyone that supported me all along....being with me all along...

Graduation ~16092009~

2009-08-29T23:39:00.007+08:00

Finally the day i have been waiting for...

The day which became my day big day of my 3 years of studies...

Finally Offically on my Rope n Mortar Board....

With my scroll in my Hand....

I've made ittttttt....

3years of waiting....

Thanks a lot to Mua Family...~my Daddy, My Mummy, My Sis, My Bro, My both Gma, my Aunties n Uncles...

Thanks to My unfailing Lecturers...n also my Frens....

We all went through it...togete we allsurvive....although a few fell down...but u guys are catching up...

No words to describe but pictures to say it all.......

this is only part one of My Convocation..

16th August 2009

CoMe Back Time.....

2009-07-12T09:27:00.002+08:00

WOW...it been a wile since i blog...

Graduation is neaR...got the Letter froM UNI..yeAaahhh...

Frenssss, let us Shake DU doWn for our DEgrEe ScRoLl...hahahaha

Im nw WorKing at INSTACOM ENGINEERING/CONSTRUCTION S/B...as

JUNIOR SUPERVISOR...hahahaha...

eMplOyed nw...making me not planting any grapes for the moment..

as job hunting is still on..yeahhhh..hahaha...

LapPy whole day long....updating whole day long...tones of OTsssss..

gaining experience & facing the cruel brand new reality world for me....

hahaha...

told myself b4...its aint easY...

nid to be strong...

GB enrolment is coming up....

next SUnday 19/07/09 to be exactttt....

hahaha....

Its been a wile...since last goodbye to UNIMAS temporarily....but..

im coming back reall soonnnn..hahaha...

missing those LepaKing tiMe back in College...

skip Classes MoMent...texting frens...go class?lazy la...don wan la..hehehe

bertAubat la..but..end up..ok la...next week we go class..hahaha...

Makan Makan time..the best time of all..hehee

assgnmnts ZOmbIeeesss....

arguEments....

beh song here n there...

hahhahaha..those were the daysssss...

Miss UnI LIFE

n YESHhhh I AM!!!!!!!!

~Life aft UnI...~

2009-06-12T21:35:00.004+08:00

hav been sometime since i last update this blog of mine..

being busy??fully occupied???

the answer is NO...im freaking FREE for the past one month doin ntg...

nt doing nothing but its actually nothing much done...

hunt for jobs..i did...

went for interviews...

quite a numbers...

get offer??yes i did....i did get offers...

Accept the offer??

I accept offer...and i also reject offer...

actually...offerS..

not being choosy..but

Do u wana do a job unhappy???unwillingly??

for me the ans is NO...so i ended up reject those offers..

[im not giving up yt..im till hunting...applying...searching..]

~those were updates on Jobs~

Camp camp camp..Girls Brigade...

YLRALT@ Young Leader Recreational and Administrative Leadership Training

Being there for 3days of the camp..for assistances...talking...catch up wid frens...

but most i did was chit chatting, helping out the trainer-Mrs boon taking pictures for her

bt i did most was chit chatting wid frens...catch up wid May Ying..hav been abt 2 years since i met her..

gosh time flies man...

the last camp i went wid her n violet was 2 years ago b4 she left...feel so lik it happen recently nia..adoo

Girls now, are so lucky...so pampered thn b4..so fragile i would say..haiz..

but what to do..

b4 the camp was No Apologies...

what is No Apologies..

an Education for Us not to lead ourselves to the wrong Path..

Sin is everywhere but abstinence

is the KEY...

Learn to SAY NO..

PeopLe..Send ur LoVed ones to The WORKSHOP
U ARE SAVING A LIFE TIME...NO REGRETS...BUT BENEFIT FROM IT..

Tomoro..saturday..Girls Brigade International Day of Prayer....

another lOng dayyy..

what to do.aft this tingie..gona be quite free butttttttt

EnroLMENT is coming...JULY....adoooooo

hehehehe.....

Not Forgotten ooo..went Gawai visiting..Hanging out wid My DEAREST FAMILY...

greatest time..

best time..

had rest....time to change lifestyle......

HuiFen's BIG DAY....

2009-05-21T23:04:00.005+08:00

HuiFen's Big Day (10 May 2009) ..i guez..i do not hav to go much more abt it..let the pictures do the talking...

All of us...

again...hehehe..

My Fren...Huifen...ConGratulations...

wishing u ever after happiness with your hubby till the end...

God Bless...

KBR..Kolej Bunga Raya...Hibiscus College...

2009-05-11T22:41:00.006+08:00

KOLEJ BUNGA RAYA .....

the College..hostel..apartment..room..

i stayed for the last 3 years, 6 semesters in UNIMAS

completing my Degree program....

A hostel..the one that gave me memories to cherish till forever...

the day came...

to leave it forever till the next time i go back for another purpose...

Masters perhap...hahahaha

leaving this place...

its very sad..

im nt coming back to Kolej-KBR...
not coming back wid bags...luggage...baskets...pillows...clothing..pail...

but im leaving it bringing everyting back home...

signing off the form...leaving form for hostel accomodation...

passing back the keys...

holding the keys and looking at the room for the last time...

B1-4- My Block

K6/B1/G/ 7- My Apartment

K6/B1/G/7E- My Room

Food FooD Food FoooDDDDddd....

2009-05-08T20:05:00.005+08:00

Once again we went n hunt our Fav place...a simple place wid fOODsss..a place leaving behind memories to all of us...i love this place its nt a place wid all those aircon la...those so called cafe or what so ever..but its a place of SIMPLICITY...a place wer me n my frens gather around for a huge round of FOODsss...

JALAN SONG

is the place....

duno how to say what to say cuz it jz one night of fullness and satisfaction..

a place whre all cheer laughter and surprise happened..hahaha...

lets look at the Photos...

FYI...its nt half from what we ordered...there are still more...hahaha..

scring other wid the food we had on the tables...

people looking at the table i am sitting..

hahaha..

look lik Last Supper..hehehe...

but

we does not cal it the night yt..

macam orang cakap..

the Night is till Young..apakah...

where KePoness of the Gurls start..

start to kepo start to gossip start to movie...everytng...

what else can i say..hahaha..wen gurls atly meet...

went over to Siewping's plc

say movie la..memang both of is movie-ing...

until...

we ask for water...thirsty...very thirsty..OMG...nvr i feel so thirsty lik that bfore..

hunt here n there for water

climb over to suling's plc..wana mintak water ba,,no water n both of us thirsty tahap entah apa la..

thn we go boil water...

plan to make tea

but out of sudden...

we were lik saying hw to drink..the water is boiling hot..

thn came out COLA..

OMG...thn was tinking wer to get cola...

came out the idea.....

7 ELEVEN....7/11...

Hahaha...

adakah patut...but yesh...we DID it...cRAZYyyyy

but Its Desperately nid water.....

COLA...7 ELEVEN...hahaha...

come come..lets c what we Get...

BIG GULPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GULP GULP GULPpppppp

Final Day Final Paper Final Exam..

2009-05-08T19:23:00.005+08:00

Final exam final paper final Day
3 Years had finally bid GOODBYE...
The DaY we were waiting for...
The Hour camee...
everyone step oUt from the Exam Hall...
Bidding gOoDbyE..
it Hurts...3 years had past..but we share feelings n the ups and the downs...

but
ONCE and FoR aLL..ITS DONE...FINALLY...we are officially done...

Bachelor of Business Administration with Honours (MARKETING) 2006/2007
University Malaysia Sarawak (UNIMAS)
on the 7th May 2009, Last paper= Strategic Marketing
After 5pm...
Bye Bye to UNIMAS..bYe Bye All...Gona c U all again really soon in few more months...

15+16 AUGUST 2009....is what we're looking forward to...

Lovely Exam HALL that we're goin to miss...exam in DEWAN UNIMAS wil be no More...

[On the stage taking the view for the last time b4 last paper]

a place a stage im gona step on to get the scroll....

Came thru My MiNd...

2009-05-05T22:16:00.003+08:00

This jz came thru my mind..i duno y but it jz came thru my mind...reminds me back of my Girls' Brigade's training camps..and also company camps and also Bible study...

Flashing back to one of the talk i attend..No Apologies..

its a talk for pre-maritual marriage sex and adultery and many more..n its all incorporated to SIN...BIG SIN..

once it was organized in a very large quantity...

this shouldnt be for jz students of secondary school..

but its well recommended for higher learning level students too..

this is the time where people tend to have freedom to the fullest

away, fafr away from parents..no more NO here n there...

FREEDOM is what u get..

love urself n love urself more

don live ur life wid regrets...

i had saw many tings happen

the good n the bad

the sweet and the bitter

the happy and the sad

the love and the HURT

but i knw its does not end here yt...

its not a full stop yt..

lots more for me to c for me to know for me to experience..

one ting i keep i mind..

IF i Don LOVE myself...

Appreciate myself..

Treasure myself..

Cherish myself..

Care for myself..

one ting that is gona happen is I AM HURTING MYSELF..

No One will HURT u 1st If u DON HURT URSELF 1st..

i ChoOSe to LOVE MYSELF B4 others LOVE ME..n to DESERVE to be LovE by Me...

[~FINALLY~]

2009-04-30T20:50:00.004+08:00

Finally Finally Finally

what can i say but Finally...

Gudnes that i waited for so long for this to happen...

all nw jz waiting to get FINAL exam done..

hehehe....

but this...it satisfies me to the fullest although Final Exam is not over yt..hehehe..

let the PICTURES do the TALKING...

ITS DONE FINALLY!!!!!!

What is Done...Is DONE...

2009-04-29T00:13:00.005+08:00

i do not knw what do i feel n why i feel lik this..flashingback...keep on flashing back..

what can be done its done..

what can i do, i did it...

what can i save i saved...

what can i share, i shared...

what can i give i've given...

what i can become i became...

what to please, i pleased...

to let go i given up...

to forget i forgotten...

to mend it over i tried...

this the time where i just cnnt stop my mind from tinking all over again..

wish that there could be a button to delete the unwanted tings

what had happen...

i gona cherish it til the end of my life

what i did wrong n what i hav being ignorant

what i hav forgotten

what i hav did wrong in hurting anyone at anytime

to anyones...

Im truly sorry...

Sorry for all the things i had done..

dear darlings frens besties sisters brothers u are the best

loving u all give me no full stop at anywhere

~a CaLL...~

2009-04-28T20:25:00.002+08:00

today, surprisingly gnet called..aft so long...oh man..Gurl..i Miss u so much...gudnes...it was so like so long...since i hear her old crazy kepo voice..haha..gurl sorry le..but true ba..we both skali meet..sure gossip..but it was great..that baru la us rite??hahaha..missing her so much...waiting n waiting for her to come back..yesh..for u to come back Jeanette Sarahann Tan S.E. b4 u kill me callin ur Full name here..hahaha...

miss U Darling...cOme back KuchING gik..dah gik kat aussie..come back gurl...

check air asia for tickets..hahahaha....

~im SORRY~

2009-04-27T15:10:00.002+08:00

i duno what to say but im SORRY..yeash i am..i feel extremely bad..but i jz duno hw to put it in words..im so so soorrryyy..i knw its too late for everything...ntg i can do but saying im sorry..i even don hav the guts to say im sorry to u..i feel extremlely guilty for that....i never knw that that person is so extremely shit...worst than a shit i cud say..gudness......
this feeling sux..i am guilty..me wrong..very wrong...

i'm so SORRY...

ntg i can do to mend it over.it was done n it was a past...but this cut this feeling will stay in me till i did hav the guts to actually face u and say i am sorry...once and for al..im sorry...

IM SORRY..very much sorrryyyyy....

exam sux..with this sux feeling...im in guilt..

im being very harsh...very bad....very hot tempered...very much negative side of me..

im sorry..

SO soOoo sOrrY....

Sem 2 (2008/2009) is coming to an END....[Exam ExAm exAm...]

2009-04-23T15:30:00.004+08:00

Exam exam exam exam..im so tired..but this will be the last final exam that im goin thru...except in future i plan to take Masters again la..hehe..but thatz in my plan definately...praying hard that one day i would be able to continue...

Another piece of paper plays a big role in society...having a roll of degree nw its lik ntg...

everywhere, just throw a stone..u gona hit a degree holder...

competition is jz to great...im graduating at the wrong time...where economy its lik hell..no much improvement but a great slum down...

to continue on masters nw right after my degree, nope im so nt doin that bt YES in future..i am goin to take up Master...

missing people a lot lately...i duno y..

this semester is coming to an end...

i miss my frens...i miss the ones who are dear to me by my side

hehehe..

darlings, dears...frens...

ALL THE BEST...Love U all...Huggies...

i am in LOVE...

2009-04-22T00:50:00.003+08:00

YES, i am in LOVE , n i am n i am in LOVE

very much in LOVE with u...

i LOVE u more day after day...u filled my life..with smile n laughter...

aft this im so very much in LOVE with u..

ur my LOVE..

To Everyone who duno..

the one n only one i LoVe is mY LILLO...my Dearest LILLO....

LILLO is My LOVE...

jz love her so much....mwakssss..

this mOviE...

i jz broke down into tears watching this movie...

*thumbs up* for Marley n Me...

braces..orthodontic...dental appointments...

2009-04-21T23:14:00.005+08:00

after a year using a retainer..or what ever its called...nw if gone...im on with a fix appliance..gudnes..the one that no way for me to take off anymore...oh gudnes...

im feeling the pressure nw..my 2rabbit tooth infront is on pressure n it hurt a bit..feel more lik having a sore thn hurt...

OMG...but my upper lips..its getting very very uncomfortable liao..sH**...

today, get one paper done..Marketing Communication...byebye to u..

another 4more to go...yeah yeah yeah.but doom doom doom...hehehehe

tired tired wana go get rest liao..hav my slepy eyes n painful lip...oh gudnes...suffering hw i wish i cud jz take it off for a min or two...to rest my lip....

gona get some medication tomoro b4 this so called ulcers getting worstttt....haizzzzzzzzz

[~Lillo LillO n LiLLo~]

2009-04-16T23:56:00.005+08:00

its all about Lillo..yeah..Lillo is growing n she's getting very noty day by day...running around...biting here n there...cute lil puppy...vv smart lik puppy....vv playful....love to hop around....hehehe...vv funny..

wen ur down, look at her...let her out looking at her running, hoping, walking shaking her tiny tail..hw sweet...hehehehe

*arent she Pretty?*

*hw can ronzai challenge my Lillo, she So eMo..*hahahaha...

*puppies oso knw hw to eMo*

~Looking 4 a [StaR]~

2009-04-16T22:19:00.002+08:00

i jz watched this movie..its one really nice movie...a movie that i flashed back loaddsss of stuff...it touched my heart...flashing back to the memories i once had..but nw..its gone..gone till i am nt sure whether can i hav it back..but i do hav a feeling telling me that...i shud jz let it go..i thought i did, but deep inside, i still keep a space for a hope..a hope that might not be here anytime soon or anytime..u might having urself to live ur life to the fullest, i wish i cud also...but deep inside there's a cut, a cut that hav been bandaged but...its still bleeding and thought that it was never been a cut before.

sometimes life is cruel. really cruel thatit does not even giv u a time to at least prepare urself for it. im so not prepared...my mouth said many times, im prepared for the worst to come..prepared for everyting that are goin to happen..prepared to what eva that comes around..being open to accept what eva happened. but deep inside, i wish it cud last longer or even forever, but it fated that there is a cut in me. the cut that leave the strongest effect,. an infection that cost me a scar that this cut will be healed by time.

by time it wil be healed but when isit no ones knows..

im looking for a star that i cuz jz leave the cut there..heal it...leaving it nt bleeding anymore and anywhere else..although bandaged.

Looking for a [*star*], a star that i cud jz throw the pain away..a star does not mean a person a star might be the strength for me to leave it behind n stop the bleeding...

~Last Year Last Class~Marketing 08/09 - 9th April 2008

2009-04-09T21:14:00.004+08:00

Last Year Last Class....Business Law & Ethics...its the LAST CLASS for Marketing 06/07 ...

Finally we make it to the FINAL finaLe..haha..sound so lik Survivor..n Yesh..im waiting for my SURVIVOR GABON to finis download...haha...

today, the last day for us to attend class...aft attending lectures for the past 3 years in Unimas..finally..here we are at the end of everyting...end of lecture...OMG...so fast ya...means that..REALITY is here..near jz around the corner....

face the real and cold-blooded world of reality...

here, from what i learn n i saw 3 years back in Uni life...here i am to actually prepare myself to meet people outside...

but to cherish..Frenshipss...n frenshipss and also FRENSHIP..although selfishess, n selfishness and also betrayal, but we're still frens till the end of life..no mate what i said b4 wat i did wat u did wat u say..it gona be down as history...but FRENSHIPs are to CheRish till the end nO mate what happen...

frens are forever no mate hw sincere u are n hw not since u are...

adalah opportunity cost here n there....biasala tu...but cherish the FRENSHIP..n

YESH...frenship between me n U my frens...i will cherish till the end of life....gona meet u all one day...

~here what we did during our last class wen Miss Marilyn ong giv us break...hahahaha...enjoy..hahaha~

~MEMORIES~ PaRt On3

2009-03-29T00:40:00.006+08:00

Wow...3 years had past...3years..full of memories...

3 years n Unimas...*Graduating soon*--->((crossed fingers))

time flies...feel it was so yesterday...

UNIMAS GEMILANG

yesh, i still remember the day i step in UNIMAS...was blUr...very bLur...but msged, call, and meet frens

frens which i know from sch..lucky me...

1st step in KoLej Bunga Raya...Hostel reg..okies..kena tegur.."adik nanti pergi tukar pakaian formal eh"

cuz i was in Jeans n SHirt...hahaha...i pergi la tukar my baju aft gt my keys n so on...

Wow..i gt a room right at the end of the hostel..but i do hav a nice green scenery..really nice from my apartment's living room...hw relaxing..that the place wer i watch sunrise wen ever i rush to finis my asgnmnt...

NiCe????dis was taken very early in the morning.....

oh man...time really flies....3rd year final sem dy....gt into my apartment....yeah..clean up clean up..mos important ting....new hostel..wid all the dirts..ewwww....but thanks to my parent n my siblings who was there to help me though..hehehe....after that...its time to register as a student..wer???BHEP of cuz...can c the line was like..WOW....*no Pics*...sad...biasa that time belum lagi sakit blogging ba...hahaha..

people are all around...met frens...but from kolej..who i met 1st...Yumei..hahaha...same building but she staying 2 level above mine la...nvm...Good exercise kan???hahaha...

time fliess.........

done wid registering a week of Minggu Aluan Pelajar...

a week of torture...but it was fun..one n the most important ting that i remember is the night where we were woke up by the seniors for FIRE DRILL...n it was lik "fire drill" but its not...jz an hour plus of ...*u kNw i knw..something illegal but to hav it they change the name to Fire Drill....which u kena berus teruk teruk..* n conclusion i got from that so called Fire Drill is....every kolej is the Worst Kolej..apakah..

but hor...that time..i was having a bad tummy pain...cuz of the food i took..wow...the feeling was so nice..hahaha......that is the ting that i will never forget..hahaha..

Honestly,...that week memang home sick....OMG....ngaku..hahaha...*shy shy*thn start la lectures...registration n so on..

asgnmnt coming....lectures....mid term exams...final exam..done...the end of 1st sem....then come 2nd sem..same old ting..but no MAP again...but lectures...asgnmnts...hangouts...exams....dis n that....the ting paling i don lik is faculty course registration...i was once at the door of the computer lab...yeash...im stick on the wall lik hw spiderman climb up the wall..haha...cnnt move at all....everyone was lik..erm.haiz..but it was fun...at least something to recall back..hahaha..

end of 1st year....fast yeah??? n joined Minggu Aluan Pelajar as a Liaison Officer (MAP 07/08)...

this was the most memorable, cherishable, meaningful lovely days of my life as UNIMAS STUDENT....It was FUN though lack of slep, tired, stress, but i was full of laughter n warmth of all of us in SWEETNESS of FRENSHIP.....

Mua Dar dar, suling, yumei, ah ui, lulu, My Roommate my Lion King...vincent, ee kiong, huang yew-king kong, john, wei jan, trinstan, chua, ang wei kian-weekend....and many more...YEAH...

*pIcturesssssss......back in UNI....UPLOAD soon...* huhuuhu...

thats all for nw...got to go back to mua FWP@ Final Week Project.....

n3w fr3n

2009-03-28T20:19:00.004+08:00

i came back home on friday...cuz im just too stress...cnnt stand it nemo..decided to skip class n back right after i hand in Music asgnmnt....i duno hw m i gona bear with the stress if im still at uni...

dis time stress level zoom up to the level that i couldnt hold it nemo...

back home...i gt a new fren...another family member...

her name is *LILLO*...

she's a German Sheperd mix Labrado...

she Extremely CUTE...

she's only 14 days old today....

Here PresentIng

*LILLO*

isnt she Cute

this is how LiLLo slep....

This is my babY *Lillo*

Stress

2009-03-17T18:27:00.003+08:00

Everyone is stress...coming out with word that so called out of our mind....i miss home i miss life that without ant rushing here nt here...i miss all...i miss my old times frens...my frens who i share my ups n downs with..........frens....u know who u are...don over stress...take good care...if there anyting do owes remember..to pray...to hav a minute of silence..calm down....n continue on with ur work...but the mst important ting is to take good care of yr health...life aint easy...sometime i feel lik jz let go..but on thing i kept in mine...im here to educate myself...here i am for a bete future for myself and for my family my parents....

Before anyting happen......Frens im sorry....for all the things i had done that HURT ya physically mentally and emotionally....im sincerely very sorry....what i had done before.but u guys are still my bestest frens and sister in life....especially goes to dar dar, suling, yumei, stella, p.x, h.f., and all my frens........although there are time that seems lik i forgotten u ppl..but deep inside my heart u're there,......i never ever forget u guys..... love for u all my frens never end....cuz frens are forever

~i'M feeling Terrible~

2009-03-14T23:22:00.004+08:00

i duno what shud i feel..i feel very sien...feeling quite sensitive lately...duno la...sien la...wen everyting is near to the due date everyone selfishess is showing and coming out....haiz.....sometime others feeling to care...but mayb im just too sensitive....just don think too much..haiz...sien la..bete i do my own ting n enjoy myself do what ever i can do....improve what ever i can improve and be the best among the best i can.......so well, come ANGEL...let stand up and strive and strike wat u aimed for n wished for....

~A Feast~

2009-03-14T22:32:00.002+08:00

another week here i am stuck in UNIMAS...yeah...stress all over...FYP...Asgnmnts n presentation...erm...great yeah....n of course...this happen to me again...I am sick...haiz...flu came earlier nw its gone....but here come the Cough....<>...both of them are really good fren...do visit me together although on the same time but its enuf to torture me...today...supposely to go Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka....but its closed...okies..it only open on weekdays n on office hours....People...if wana go there..make sure go on WEEKDAYS n on OFFICE HOURS....thn went off to PUSTAKA......okies..its open..yeapz...its OPEN but....officially its open at 11a.m....great......cuz of that....we went to Boulevard...did our shopping for lunch n plan to the library is postponed to next week....haiz...what a life....but we did get a nice heavy and healthy lunch...for the very first time we had something fresh n not from a can...hehehe.....Its Assam Fish...Sweet n Sour Fish and also Mix Vege...yeahhhhhhhhhh..yummy......duno hw to describe but let the pictures say it all...yeahhh.......(Connection SuX again..cnnt post pics....but will post wen got stable connection)-time to WoRk again......

anyone know the feeling of being pressured??????

2009-03-11T03:03:00.002+08:00

anyone know the feeling being pressured....my shoulder feeling so heavy....feeling of 46peoples marks is on my shoulder..which i am bearing it now with few of my coursemate...this feeling really s***!!!!!!!!! can u imagine what will be happening if u failed to provide those members the marks which is nearest to 20?????????possibility to get 20marks is there but the possibility to loose mark is also there as this ting i got no confidence at all cuz there's till (????) all around...but since all the combined group leaders said its lik dat...what can we say...although there are still (????) in our heads......

i dun know y n how shall i react.....i wana to deliver the best in presenting my points and convincing my lecturer in marking us to the best??????? i still cannot feel the interaction although there was improvement during rehearsal jz now...but interaction from the WHOLE group is the main thing that is needed.......i heard from people on....do u think that lecturer will giv us marks only on few directors mumbling n few shareholders mumbling?????and few questions that r goin to be asked?????lik dat?????????? it is not easy lo....or mayb im just thinking too much...m i???someone please tell me....here is the place to score for dis particular subject....

not the rehearsal.......not the points.....there's just something that is so not right.....duno y do i hav this feeling but this feeling is here n my sixth sense owes give me quite accurate real ting might hapen.....

im very stress im afraid that i will loose my patient anytime from now....do pray hard ya.......

~Early in the Morning~

2009-03-10T04:02:00.003+08:00

starting off with, "angel, everyone is aslep but left us sitting here suku suku"haiz....answering back "my fren, which sem we not sitting here suku suku le?".....my fren got so speechless n nothing to say...cuz im shooting ourselves...mayb dis is the symtom of not getting slep at tis time....looking outside as the sky is gettting lighter and come out with another question....we're the most romantic fren that every semester sure for once we sit togete n watch sunrise...hahaha..the fren of mine goes...angel...don talk..don wana talk to u liao...hehehe...hw can i resist not to laugh....gudnes...Angel ur sot...hahaha

friendship....from a blog of a very good fren of mine...my bestie...someone that does not cherish frenship..they are so called "Fren" that duno what is fren although they got dictionary to search for the meaning...but to that person that know hw to read but they would not know hw to elaborate n inteprete the meaning of "FRENSHIP"....sad to see n knowing people lik dat..hw pathetic....kecian kan? they don DeSERVE the real ting NAMED FRENSHIP..............

its time to go back to asgnmnt that kill my brain cells n waiting for my sunrise.......crazy me.....Gambateh....to me, dar n suling let us work.........hurrayyyyyyyy........

Bu8y Busyyyy....

2009-03-09T01:48:00.003+08:00

buSy dis tiMe really Busy...but till got time to blog...hehehe..have been facing lappy for the whole day....tired eyes getting watery..its early in the morning.....missing my bed but gona hold for a little while more b4 i can dozed off to dreamland n continue working hard tomoro....hehehe....
stress n stress n stress....ting that cannt runaway from,.hw tired m i physically and mentally....but at least i did hav nice rest back home...aft dis no time to loose no time to waste..every min n every min is very precious....

bye..back to asgnmnt liao.gona update again soon.....

I'm tired

2009-03-05T11:36:00.002+08:00

im so so tired...im so not happy...im so depressed...im tired of everyting happening to me lately...got no 1 to talked too..somethimes i do miss having some1 by my side to share everyting to..but nw the special some1 is so long not here by my side anymore....sometime i just nid a shoulder to lean on...but what can i do since there's no hope for it anymore although how much i wan it to be...
life aint easy for sure..n im so sure n definate abt it now...i jz nid a break..i nid to hav a break of peacfulness with my head nt worrying anyting. i miss times that i can actually jumping n running...
im speechless....im tired...i duno what n hw should i react anymore...so so tired dy...sometimes i feel lik giving up but not at this very last moment.......haiz.....

anyway...praying for betterness and hapiness of life ahead n God will guide me n help n strengthen me through everyting....

^WeEkeNd^

2009-03-01T23:39:00.005+08:00

this is the weekend that i miss a lot...spending my precious time wid my loved ones..my family....today i went out whole day...from morning till night....OMG....morning...stock uploading..shopping for FOOD........yeahhhhhhhhh....aftn.....to Santubong for Fish Hunting...OMG....short picnic...fun time wid dady mumy sis n bro wid aunties n uncle..wid couzie...nice scenery....long time since i ease my eyes with nice calm green scenery...how peacefull.......here are some picz that gona round up all that make me blew up with no words to describe.......

^Nice BeAutiFeul BeaCh^

^brO-Adrian, Me, Sis-Sze, Couzie-PeiChieN

^Me Sis n Mumy ActIng lik MomoK^

*Me & SiS*

Me=neW haIr....YeaHhhh......

hOmeEeeeeeeeeeee

2009-02-28T23:47:00.001+08:00

Yeah......Im HomE...Finalyy......

huraAyyyy.......my home sweet home...my nice comfy bed.......

the smell of my home....everyone is home....

HOME.............

We3k3nd

2009-02-26T13:49:00.003+08:00

i wan my weekend backkk....i miSs my weeKends wid FamilY....i wan it bAck..weEked its Just dAy aft 2moro...just cnnt wait for exam to be over n bacK home have my nice RelaxinG wEekEnd wid FamiLy....

ya...ya ya....i admit i admit...im HoMe sIck...

it have been lik for weeks i ddnt go bak Home...i wan to back home relax...here too much stress...everyday...books...articles..nw questionnaires....haiz..

but i did some Lil gardening here in Unimas...that is wat i call STRESs....but its fun tho...at least i gt soemthing to care of wen im so stress looking at it...its give great sense of satisfaction....hehehe....

but its really the very 1st time i take care of -----> *pics to be posted soon*-line sux mannnnn.............. wan post pic oso cnnt...apakahhh......

Here Come the PhOtoS.......(1st March2009)

LooKing forward dis WeeKenD...me GoiN bacK hOme.....HuRray......whOeva StOp me frOm thIs to HaPPen...i'm So gOna HeNtaM u.........

p/s: Whats next on the list for Angel to do some gardening...hahahaha

~Wednesday 25th February, 2009~

2009-02-25T10:34:00.000+08:00

Time Flies....a new year is ending its 2nd month of the calender...

that means...end of university life end real soon...*crossed fingers* if ntg came along to stop it frm happening...

what can i say...this 3 years have been great...goint hru the ups n the downs...but i enjoyed it n it make me more mature in a way but for my frens..they willl say..Angel is till Angel....getting more siao..more cha si lang..more hiao...etc...its had been great...missing all this for sure...

the sweet n the bitter is goin through with me right here inside me till the end of life....oh yeahhhh.....

FYP FYP FYP...PTA PTA PTA...

tiamz liao la dis time.....no time no time...no tile to loose but gt belly to loose....n flatten it again....nid exercise mannn...

huhuhuuh............everyone is rushing for FYP..Asgnmnts....projects.........examsss coming soon...my Last mid Term is coming to an end soon........last paper dis friday....thn asgnmnts..PTA......wow.........song.....dis time nt panda zombie, i duno wat i shud call myself liao....huhuhu...

tata.....wait i back home write longer......dis dno can post of nt.line nt really good...hehehehe

~Down Wednesday~

2009-02-06T11:29:00.000+08:00

Its Wednesday man..no internet….got la…don say don hav…but the line really sux man.OMG…took me ages to open a webpage to check on my online distributed questionnaire…haiz…
Im bored…I am so gona take my aftn nap in a wile..but feel lik blogging a wile…but since there no proper internet line thn I would just save this file up n publish it wen I gt to internet connection…hehehe…
Lately, I hav been flashing back few stuff again n again….sometime I feel that I hav a delete button…half a year had pass…but the pain is till here deep inside…u might feel ntg..cuz its over for u..but for me…there no words to describe….i wish I could jz let go the past n move on…leaving all of that behind..but what can I do?? I do feel lik crying again and again but what for since there would not be any turning back point anymore…but I wished it will be one….hope will ended as hope not more thn hope…ntg I can do….
Once there someone ask y ddnt I hold on n reject it…I did…I did tell u that I till wana kep it…but u let it go…u let go…wat I can do nt to let go…I cnnt force u…Ur different…wat u wan u will do it n u will kep ur words…
Sometimes I do ask myself y m I so stupid to keep holding to dis feeling n not letting it go…jz let it go Angel…let it go…I wish I cud…I wanted…I tried..but ntg cud actually make me let go….im tired im tired….start a new relationship…mayb hunting again..or jz forget all abt getting attached again…..for the sake of nt getting hurt again….i duno..i really duno…I do not wana knw…im tired….
Im tired tinking…im tired..mentally..but physically im so energetic..mayb a jog later on…hahaha..but don tink so liao as weather don allow n yumei is goin Allamanda to cure her ill lappy..pity her lappy…hehhe…sleping time…..yeahhhhhhhhh……..
NITEZZZZZZZZZZZ…..

4.09p.m. – 4th February 2009

~HAPPY CHINESE "牛" YEAR (2009)~

2009-01-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE "牛" YEAR 2009

May Ox Year bring Properous and Lots of Joy and

Happiness to all...

HappY Chinese New Year...preparation nw i really know the real feel of tired lo...ngaiti...clean here n there...adui...so tiring man....today is the last day of the year...chinese new year soon in jz few more hours...mummy baked 2 types of cake..one is raisin cake..another one is Hong Kong cake..that whats she called it la...every year sure gt dis 2 types of cake wan...nice nice....but atly dis year mumy plan to be lazy but she cnnt stand my nagging i guezz...cuz hav been bugging her to make cake...hahaha...
adakah patut..hehehe...few deco at home for more chinese new year feeling lo...if nt dis year its lik no feeling de...cuz tv is nt showing any Hot chinese new Year stuff n outside at shops oso..its not like before liao no more the HOt-ness of CNt mood dy....feeling lik its just another day ....another one ordinary day....went to supe save grab a few MooMoo deco...hehehe...it on the wall liao yesterday once i gt it back from outside.....here gona be some pictures of my home make deco n mumy cake...hehehe.....

Mumy deco de....

Chinese "Xmas" New Year Tree

Deco i get one..nice bo???

Duno how old liao dis Moomoo.

Mumy bake de Hong Kong cake...nice oo...

I aM sIcK....Terriblly sIck...arGh....

2009-01-18T09:46:00.000+08:00

CNY is just next week n im so so sick...damn sick...dis time i collapse liao....haiz..rushed to clinic last nite n hav few types of medication...make me slep from 8 something to 8 something in the morning...OMG....but so much bete but i do feel very weak...suoer weak no enery to do anyting but sitting down here moving my fingers only...i kept myself in blanket n look lik a hotdog bun n also oven myself in jacket too....wat a time to be sick.haiz..the weather is not helping me to feel any bete but worse....haiz...

"LAST YEAR"

2009-01-17T00:39:00.000+08:00

Erm…only dis few nia meh for Block B, Kolej Bunga Raya?

Call it last year….suling, yumei n i came down for cloth washing…coincidence we heard that there’s block meeting down there..okies….while waiting for our clothes to be ready frm the laundry…we did something incredible…1st time in 3 years here in Unimas, we went down for block meeting that we never went….but dis time we broke our record being there n also down early….hahaha…so so funny….there’s come pictures to share..but by looking at the crowd….atly block B students are so much more thn what is in the pic that I took…hahaha…where are those ppl….but can say that most 3rd year n last sem students are nt there but us n few more that spotted la..biasala…last year last sem dy ba......ahem ahem

life aint easy...i MEAN it....

2009-01-11T22:20:00.001+08:00

what can i say...life really NOT EASY...giving up...leaving it behind...forgetting it...let it go...it could be easy for someone else.but for me its aint easy....flashingback i did...letting go i tried...ignore what eva i felt..i did...d feeling is till there....not goin away so far...i wanted to c u..but i just cnnt look at u right in ur eyes....i just feel lik falling in ur arms again...wish to be in ur arms again lik i used to...but its all OVER...NO MORE....i miss u i till miss u....i just wan u back but there ntg i can do to hav u back..letting u go..letting dis feeling go...mayb its just one way out....

wen ur nt around..ur nt back to ur hometown...im owes here but thn wen ur back..im lik a burden...im lik some1 monitoring u...it hurts me hell wen u first say it to me...but thn wat can i do but to accept it as it is hard...sometimes i feel lik im just an entertainment to u...something for u to entertain ur own wen ur bored..wen im nt anymore wanted...off u go...out of my way..ur monitoring...

but u told me once im the only one u care d only gurl u care...u nvr care for any gurl lik hw u care for me...u make me smile u make me feel lik im in the world of my own...once u wana end it i feel the world crashed down on me...it hurt...its killng me...it crushed me more thn crushed ice...ice melt....but my pain is till there.. am being really hard for this past few months....looking back flashing back...ur d 1 i love the most....u hurt me...i don hate u...u end it...i never wana say goodbye...but s i keep tinking it hurt me lots...

all i can say is i till keep this hope...dis one n only hope...but i hope that it would fades away s time passes.....swwet memories between us...i will definately cherish it till the end of my life....cuz my love to u is sincere n i till heart u...Huggss...wish to be in ur arms again but that will be in the memories

byebye...good bye....

R@!ni&9 3veryd@y

2009-01-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

raIn...rAin....

it has been raining non stop...looking at it...wow..nice so called "winter' here in Kuching...

cold really coLd...hiding in blankets or sweaters...wow....feel more lik a hotdog bun...hahahaha...

wanted to jog around uni wid frens...Yumei..help...must jog...tummy is getting bigger liao...

but weather weather..apakah weather..but nice cloudy day in the evening is the best.

Dis few days rain whole day non-stop...its COld...but nice weather....love it...

~1sT wEek~

2009-01-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

1st week...running around Uni...expected..clashes wid dis n that subject..expected...getting annoyed n irritated wid anyting also expected...wat else???pressure?yeah..expected...mood swing lately..yeah i did..but yeah...nid to face it show a smile on my face..of cuz......hahahaha

overall...dis week ntg much....running around n being "holland"/"aeroplane" by lecturers lo....ehehe...3rd year last sem.....tot it would be bete no more rebut here n there...no ntg jz can take anyting we wanted s wanted but it turned out the other way round..great isnt it?dis time really frus all of us...cuz there's no more n we hope there's really no more another sem can take liao...cuz we do not wan to extend..stress man...angry wid some Lecturer which suka ati they wana change classes nia...timetable out liao..ok..anyting we accept then we plan the other subject on our own s taking generic n complimentary subjects...ok..plan timetable nice nice liao..but then..come...dis lecturer wana change day...another one change oso..

clashes wid most on selected pelengkap..mana la tidak frus.......thn ok la..accept the reality...malam class ok la...pagi ka..petang ka ok...saturday ka..friday nite ka..ok..no prob s long don clash nia....thn settle....come another one..suppose to hav 2classes..split ba..then lecturer ask for one class nia...apakah....nw all clash take wat???n so coincidence that most of the pelengkap i wanted clash...all tuesday...Y pelengkap dis sem all TUESDAY wan ha???haiz......ok la..thn take other subject...nid to attend 2 class..ok la...accept la..if reallt that is the only way out...attend 2 classes attend la...i don mind....no time lunch pun hentam la..

thn come ppl say the combine class nw split again to normal lik 1st time..ok...today...last day drop courses...wat can we do till nw all not confirm...I DUNO LA...someting really wrong wid the management or lecturer or the classroom itself...HENTAM la....

nw cnnt do anyting...only hope that no more changes n please DON change any liao...cuz if combine class n tiz will make Many of us DEAD............Im so pissed off...till last day to register oso everyting NOT SURE............................HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

hate it a LOTTT....F***...S***

Another story...today...tot gt class la...but in the end kena Holland la...thn was in class for abt 2hours earlier...lepak ba...thn come in one guy...super Junior...fromFK...ok...come he say wana share Good News..ok Fine....listen la..but wen we ask ques....he is SOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo BLURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...................... no exact ans...thn ask again say secret...name of church= NO NAME...hello people....please....AJARAN SESAT ka? apakah....dis secret that secret thn blur.....thn share lik force ppl to follw the religion...hello...someone please..take action or something....he's a WEIRDO......one more....Jesus love u....Yeah...JESUS LOVE ME.....AMEN...but that guy..his sharing n his approach...OUT OF STORY...for Me its AJARAN SESAT using the Holy Book BIBLE.....haiz...May God Bless Him n lead him to the right path....

Overall...dis week no class...no class....gt la..one..LAW class...then other not postpone...thn Holland la..hehehe.....

~@ brAnD n3w y3aR~^2(0)(0)9^

2009-01-01T12:53:00.001+08:00

2008 gone...here comes 2009...a brand new beginning..new chapter of my diary....

2008...a year full with ups n downs...

2008....u taught me lots of things....

2008....u teach me what is the meaning of this BIG word..."COMMITMENT"

Yes i DO understand the meaning

buT its a HarD+rOugh leSSon

2008....never too Late to say gooDbYe to U foReVer...

2008 is the year u make me hAppY make Me sad..eVeryting had haPPen...I will CherisH it till tHe eND...

no MattEr wHat...Its A YEaR to RemEmBer..

tO my FrEns wHo neVer Fails to aCcompaNy me Wen I'm dOwN...wen i TeaRs...wen I go hiiHiiHaaHaa...GossIps no EnDs....ThAnks...

Of Cuz..My ParEnts n SibLings..whO coOl me n JokeS weN iM so DepreSsed..

HERE I COME...says 2009...

a neW ChaPter...AngEl[5zeN@].....

My FiNaL yeAr...My LiFe is deFinatEly gEttiNg gReaTer...

HeLLo 2009..heLlo fRieNds...heLlo everyOne...